Looking Like a Girl

I've mentioned before that from time to time I get so busy that I sometimes put myself last on the to-do list and I end up rocking my 'homeless' look. Now I mean no disrespect to the important issue of homelessness, but I have a reason for naming my appearance as such. I remember watching Lisa Ling interview a homeless wife living in a tent city and she asked her what she missed most about her former life. With a single tear streaming down her face from behind her glasses, the woman responded, "Looking like a girl." That was years ago, but I've never forgotten it. It occurred to me that you could lose everything or have the security of a roof over your head, but for many of us the hallmark of being a woman is looking like one and thereby feeling like one. I think of that woman often. I think of her every time I'm feeling lazy and I throw on a pair of jeans and sneakers (not my best look by the way). This week on Tuesday I thought to myself, "If I have to put on these jeans one more time, I'm going to scream!" Immediately I ran to the mall and bought a little dress from H&M. It was nothing overly impressive, but cute enough to bring me back to myself. My husband noticed and commented that I looked spring-y. That made me feel good.

Something else I had gotten away from is keeping my nails done. In my younger more shallow days, I wore acrylics and I was religious about keeping a french manicure. Then one day I looked at my hands and decided that I was wasting too much time and money running to the nail salon every two weeks for a refill. I am still glad I freed myself from acrylic nails, but I made the mistake of throwing the baby out with bathwater by not taking 20 minutes (and $12) to get a plain ole' manicure from time to time. Well this week I did (along with my obligatory summer sandal pedicure), and I must say that I'd forgotten how girly a splash of color can inspire you to feel. In my attempt to make important things the priority (God, marriage, ministry etc.), this week I was reminded that I am a priority too and remembering that makes me better able to give myself away to be used effectively.